j.fenmore

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so i was stoked cause i could bowl 4 hours, as many games as i want, for 17 bucks...then i found out it was also cosmic bowling night...

F U C K C O S M I C B O W L I N G ! ! !

seriously no one can bowl properly when its dark and music is making my ears ring.

and if that wasnt enough they decided to add a fog machine which practically gags you and then they flick the fucking lights like im at a fuckking rave. DIE COSMIC BOWLING.

I was enjoying life till now.

Life sucks, seriously. I dont know what else to think. The high points only last so long, and then they are gone and it seems like I have to work far too hard to get them back. I want to find genuine happiness, that kind you get when you are with people you care about and you know they care too, where you can feel a high from them because you know they arent judging you and they always will be there. Ive had friends come and go, some stuck by, and Im so thankful for those. Some kinda faded away and I miss some of those a lot. I've gone through so much with some of those people and I cant help but feel some what responsible that we arent as close anymore.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that Im sad(sorry if that makes me some kinda pussy) but I really am sad, Ive had a lot of unfotunate things happen to me over the past couple days, weeks and years and having my car keyed last night kinda top it off. It made me realize a lot. First thing, why would anyone do that? Obviously I must of made them angry in some way. Last night I thought I was among friends and what I'm trying to say is once again something has happened to me that is going to be costly, and while I was among friends. WHY? This is what I got from it, I cant help to think that I got involved with the wrong crowds, because someone to have done such a thing needs to be low, so why am I involving myself with people who key other peoples car to get revenge...I dont fucking know.

I feel that I have wasted sooo much time making new friends and meeting new people when I had the only people that mattered in the first place and now they are gone. To those people, im still the same person, I may have changed in the middle, but I'm making a comeback. I want that high from my real friends once again.

And to the person who keyed my car, I pity you, I pity the trash you call your life.

so incase i was showing slight signs of appreciation for my life i was dramatically reminded that i still hate it.

so my wallet was jacked last night. i lost 56 bucks, my credit cards, drivers license, AAA card, vons card and a bunch of other shit. this happened at Studio S in the parking lot, it was a dark brown leather wallet.

IF YOU FOUND IT OR KNOW SOMEONE WHO DID, ID APPRECIATE A PHONE CALL (818)216-3960. THANKS.

please read this if you have the time and re-think about your decisions:

Our youth today are doing drugs younger and younger, some as young as 11 or 12. It’s at the point where most people don’t even care about pot. Pot is the most used drug among people my age( 15-18 ). It’s to the point where there are a large group of people that want to legalize the drug. So that the every day person can smoke pot like they smoke a cigarette. This idea makes me sick. If you just looked at the effects of Marijuana you would think these people were crazy.

Ok here are just the short term effects of smoking Marijuana:

* Drowsiness
* Impaired short-term memory
* Reduced ability to concentrate
* Loss of coordination
* Increased heart rate
* Dry mouth
* Bloodshot eyes
* Decreased Social Inhibitions

Long-Term Effects of Smoking Marijuana:

* Paranoia
* Abnormal physical development in males: reduced testosterone levels may delay deepening of voice, growth of beard, development of muscle mass. It can also lead to decreased sperm count and difficulty having children.
* Abnormal physical development in females: Increased testosterone and decreased estrogen levels may cause irregular menstrual cycles and an increased risk of infertility.
* Carbon monoxide and tar into lungs (Pot smoke has 70% more cancer-causing chemicals than tobacco smoke, so that heavy pot smokers may have as much or greater potential for developing cancer as cigarette smokers).
* Reduced capacity to fight off infections (and added risk of infection to smokers who share joints)
* Decreased motivation/ambition

After stating the above facts why would anyone want to approve the legalization of Marijuana.

So im kinda broke and without a job for a tad bit. Which is bad, so Ive decided to begin trying to sell my services, unfortunately no one wants to pay me for sex, so instead I can paint/draw on anything for you for a small fee. I do Rooms, Closets, Canvases, Hats and anything else you would like. So help a brotha out<3

If you have any other questions, or just wanna tell me im cool, just AIM me on: PoundItXXX
~fenmore

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